I feel pretty lost right now, lost pretty much the best thing going for me. Happened out of no where. I guess it’s time to move on. Well as for now Nate will be going back to school. Hopefully I can get it all done by summer and start college in the fall. I’d love to move to Phoenix and go to school there but I don’t know which one to choose. When the time comes I’ll figure it out. I’ve been keeping to my word and I haven’t smoked weed in three months and I’ve been sober from alcohol for 2 months. Feels really good. Even tho I do have urges to, I don’t. I guess all I gotta say is that I’m trying to live a positive lifestyle. But I still find myself always depressed about something.
Back to square one. Not too sure how this happened but it did. It hurts like hell. But oh well I should be use to this pain right? I should be use to always losing. That’s just life I’m guessing. If you need me, I’ll be in the clouds.
We ended things on a bad note, I tried to find out what was wrong but you wouldn’t say. We didn’t speak one word yesterday, and to that I don’t know why. Tryin to reply the things you said. Hoping and praying that everything is okay. I’m just trying to show you that I care. Just trying to show you the love I have for you. I hope your heart hasn’t changed what its feeling. Just let me know everything will be alright.<33